Problems, Problems, Problems

Is there something in me that within a month there are already a handful of problems that came to me… not just my own problems.. but also others problem… some I even helped or obliged to involve myself…

I have helped two individuals with their academic problems… and one of them, I did helped to fix the problem… one I helped comforting that person and also to what to do…

But, have I helped myself with all my problems??? After thinking.. I think I have not yet helped myself… maybe because I have these characteristic that I would not show to anyone (but my best friend and ex-partner/still close friend) my problems… parang nahihiya ako to really open up… I may open up to some of my closest friends in college, but I kinda say that I am working on it… and that my problems are no big deal… but honestly, there are a lot of problems that are still a big problem…

I try to put set aside my problems first and leave it as a problem un solved… and worry about when I am capable of working on it…

I love helping people, but I can’t help myself… I even can’t ask for help from someone to help me…

The most recent problem that came to me is my cousin.. who has a very big problem with her past boyfriend… I am not being biased but the guy is really hurting my cousin… my cousin really wanted the two of them to be okay, because he was the first boyfriend that she really loved… others were just ‘boyfriends’… but the most bad thing that the guy did was that they made out after fighting (hindi na sila, my cousin just gave what he wanted)… but before they did it, she was crying.. the guy still wanted to go on and do it… so she was cried before, during and after they did it… and to add up, when morning came he woke her up and said “umuwi ka na, umaga na. I left P50 sa pocket ng shorts mo” … anu yun one-night-stand… parang wala naman silang past???

Anyway, I am glad my cousin opened up.. because I am sure she is okay already.. after 6 hours of talking and comforting her… imagine talking about love problem from 1-7 in the morning… that’s how I love my family…

The things are heating up…

It is nice to see and feel that the Calinao Cup will finally be back. There is a 50% chance already that it would be staged once more. Off course, I am depressed that two consecutive years there was none – and both were under me. Now I am working my way out to come up with almost all publicity materials.

But what is really heating up is the people in the organization… almost everyone is excited, almost everyone is doing their part, and the alumni are also helping. And to add, there would be media coverage… and the best part… the first ever VC week is planned… As early as now, everyone is working very hard to make this possible…

Sadly to say, are we really ready for these… to think there are a lot of issues happening that is affecting the org and the tournament… I know everyone (only those who have their hearts in making it work) are doing their best… even though there are people/individual who would make excuses and make there presence or help unseen or unfelt… but a big credit must be given to those who said that they would be inactive ut still help… and alumni are too helping… not like some members, who just suddenly decided to be inactive and “make takas” from the responsibility they have as a part of the organization… the hell with their reasons!!!

Come to think of it, most of the officers and those graduating people are the ones who have all the right to make excuses because they are already “graduating” this semester… but still these people choose not to – because – they love the org and they would do anything to make things work… they have, what we call, time management…

So, YOU (I hope you would be able to read this), we do have all the reasons to think of you the way we are thinking now… do not try to come out clean because in the way or things you are doing and showing to us, you are very wrong… are you scared??? I guess you are… aaarrrggghhh… you know, you made me learn to get mad at someone again… am sorry, I guess we have the right opinion about you right now… and do not tell us that to think of your opinion or your side… how can that happen??? You do not even talk to us… show up… you’d rather make an excuse that you are busy that you cannot make it??? Duh… can’t you spare a little time for your responsibility… mahiya ka?? Ako pa nag-asikaso ng dapat mong gawin… you can’t just do what you have to do when you are free??? Ano ka, we are gonna wait for you so we could move on??? Whatever!!! Damn you… I so love the org that I do not want people like the way you are acting… there are a lot of pasaway na members, but not like you… maybe there a few like you… but you are, for me, one of the worse…

These are my angst… but the show must go on… move one, move on… time is wasted on people like that person… we are still happy… and with what I can see with VC now… we are happy and have a big dream… dreaming for the org is better than not dreaming…

If everything fails... or something things won’t work out… at least we all worked hard together for it… no regrets… and no thanks to the people who has no love for the org but just there for playing or barkada…

Fin

WALA BANG...

how i wish something happened the other night. it was just a mere "hirit". But NO, it was a nice one... i wish i could tell straight to this person's face what i feel...

gosh..i suddenly became torpe!!!!

GRADUATION...

i have this fear that i would be leaving another chapter in my life. after i these latest chapter is so colorful.. am i ready to leave it behind? or ready to be away for most of the times?

i know i would miss VC and UP a lot... that's for sure.. i would miss a lot of people.. especially those special to me???

but i am sure that these chpater would always be here... and i can always return to them...

Formal Interview


yesterday was our org's formal interview.. and i was shocked that i did what i wanted to do before pa... ang magtaray...i know i am mataray pero in special ocassions lng...pero i never made taray sa formal interview.. this was the first time...okay naman pala...pero na-guilty ako kasi umiyak halos lahat.. napaiyak ko nga ang di dapat iiyak.. hehehe

pero i know it is just part of every application ang matarayan...kaya okay lang na tinarayan ko sila... they must learn to be brave and not be scared of it... kailangan deadma lng sila if they really want to join... i am a friendly member naman... hehe

Kapaguran at Kasiyahan


Today is such a tiring day... but, in fairness to me, i expected to have a poor game against CHK (that's CHK eh)... pero close fight naman kahit papaano. kaya kung kaya. pero, trained sila eh. they have an advantage. in fairness to my teammates ang ganda ng laro nila kanina... expected naman ang errors.. pero in general, okay play nila... kahit we lost by straight sets, i did not feel anything heavy... happy happy pa din.. considering na nilalagnat ako at walang boses... napagod ako sa game...

pero mas napagod ako after the intrams... naglaro ang mga VC.. at hagard.. habulan at agawan... grabe, while i was washing na... i realized i had fun... minsan na lang ginagawa ng VC ung ganung "fun"... kakulitan at kakahiyan pero masaya!!!

then, i also realized na i would miss that when i graduate... i would miss the childishness of people kahit na college na... hehehe... pero for sure i would always be there sa VNYTS and activities ng VC (lalo na FR!!!)...

Next happiness was the "Lunch" sa KFC-Katips... mga 15 kami dun... we were so noisy... tawa dito, tawa dyan... parang we own the place.. we reminisced our FRs... as in, pinagtatawanan na lng ngyn... i am really that old??? harharhar.. anyways, i missed those times na madalas ganun ang VC...

i missed a lot of things...

we even hanged out sa gym upto 9pm!!!

i can really say: I LOVE UP VOLLEYBALL CLUB ...

eto lang ung org ko sa UP ka super active ako...

I FEEL LIKE ORGANIZING...


Why get organized?
Being disorganized can cause serious consequences in the different areas of your life, such as finances, health, relationships and legal matters. Can't find the documents to support claims? Forgot to pay your bills again? People losing confidence in your agility to get things done? Always, in high stress as you race to meet the next deadline?

"Being organized is not and end in itself. It is a vehicle to take from where you are to where you want to be." - Stephanie Winston, Productivity Consultant.

Organization helps in supporting you in reaching your goals, it is your ally to success, whatever that might mean for you.


DO YOU NEED A PROFESSIONAL ORGANIZER? THE ANSWER IS YES IF...
- you cant't find things the moment you need them
- you have trouble letting go or deciding what to keep or toss out
- you'd like to get organized but you're too overwhelmed by the sight of your stuff
- you keep buying things only to lose them among your many other things
- there are multiple items stacked up around your home or office that impede movement
- you're clearly inconvenienced by clutter
- you yearn to transform your surroundings into a place of calm and order



(all entries are from Katheleen Ong of www.rippleeffectorganizing.com)

A Fruitful Day!!!


Yesterday (September 2) was a very fruitful day... many good things happened inspite na magkaaway kami ni "boo-fee"... first, when i arrived sa gym to watch intrams the CHE/Arki women's team was leading sa first set against Eng'g - then CHE/Arki grabbed the first set.. pero unfortunately they lost sa 2nd and 3rd sets.. but still CHE/Arki had a big chance to enter the semi-finals... we even computed the quotient system kasi triple tie ang Eng'g, CSSP, and CHE/Arki... laglag ang CSSP sa computations ko... hehehe

second, after the game.. katext ko a friend who promised me na re-replyan nya ako... kasi di sya reply sa lahat eh... good re-replyan na niya ako... i hope alam nya na he is one of my dearest friends.. and i dont want the feeling na paranf ala kami communication with each other...

3rd, nakasama ko ulit ang ilan sa mga taong namiss kong kasama sa tambayan... we stayed until late in the evening... tapos it was the first time again na nakausap ko ang isa sa kanila ng malalim and serious na usapan.. hehehe

ayun... i hope this continues... malapit na ako umalis sa UP as a student... i would miss just hanging out with the people dear to me... every weekends na lng cguro... ayun... kaya i want this last year of mine to be fruitful... hehehe

YOU ARE THE ONE...


last night i watched "you are the one".... while watching i thought of a lot of things... sam milby also reminded me of my buffy.. then i saw myself in"sally"... especially when sinabihan sya na she was insecure... eh someone told me i was... then i suddenly realized i was... i was like "sally"...

anyways, isecurity is not what i want to talk about... what i wanted to post is about a joke-quote sent to me before.. i never thought about that quote so much... ala lng sya dai.. but after watching the movie.. napaisip ako.. the quoe is:

"Would you love someone who completes you or someone who would love you completely"

diba it is hard to choose?? i actually would answer BOTH... pero what if you are to choose only one??? i guess i would choose the first one.. because for me, ones you have been "completed" that person would then love you completely...

kayo what do you think???
"Would you love someone who completes you or someone who would love you completely"


P.S.
The movie story is quite okay, the progress and how the story was presented was kinda exaggerated.. pero i got attached to the story of the characters and their lives... so i was a good movie.. come to think of it, i am not a Filipino-movie-watcher... i rarely appreciate tagalog films... and i appreciaed "you are the one".. i would even recommend it to people...